Friday Night Ramblings: The Pity Party

I should be mega excited right now. I am on the verge of graduating. I have a great girlfriend. My job is going great and my family loves me to death (hehehe)!! I should be jumping for joy like Trump at a Hair Club for Men Convention. But I'm not. In fact, this week I went through a self-inflicted emotional roller coaster. I started wondering if I made the right decision going back to school as I looked at my bank account and laughed and cried at the same time. I started getting frustrated at amount of debt that I accumulated as well as the fierce competition in the job market. Then I started thinking of all of the fun I was missing back home in NY, all the women I was missing, friends, etc!!! ANDDDD THHHEEEENNNNN, I started thinking about my last time playing football and how much I missed that. How much I missed playing basketball and friends and weed and liquor and.... It finally hit me. Like smack dab in the face. I am finally growing up and starting to become a real adult. I am just going through emotions I should have dealt with years ago. Now I will always maintain my childlike curiosity and boyish good looks and charm and wit and insert 1,000,000,000 other self-christened comments (Yay). But I just realize that I can not be selfish anymore. I must be more aware of others, not only those close to me, but also those who are watching my moves that I am not even aware of. I had to eliminate a lot of negative energy to get to this point. But I, like others in my position, can not let fear of the unknown be a deterrent. I have put all of those negative thoughts in reverse. Instead of wondering if I made the right decision, I can say that I know it was right to go to school, not only for my own self improvement, but to gain insight as to why you need to tackle school with a complete game plan. I'll talk about that in upcoming blogs. My bank account and debt are turning into income sooner than later as I turn myself from John Coston, handsome student and warehouse worker supreme :) into John Coston, Inc. This blog is part of that transformation and more is coming in the next few months. Everything that has happened in the past is just that. The past. I am looking forward to creating new memories for the future. Yep, every now and then, a little doubt will creep in and it can turn into a pity party. As long as you know when to end the party, you 'll be alright!!! www.twitter.com/thefakejcoston www.facebook.com/john.w.coston