Can't Stop, Won't Stop!

Before I start this blog off, shout out to Tony Crawford for the phrase, "REAL N@GGAZ......PAY THEY MOMMA BACK!!!" Word!! Anyway, I thought about many different directions that I could go into tonight. My case of writer's block has disappeared and now ideas are flowing like fried chicken after church! Im going back to a familiar subject for me....That is alcohol. Not to toot my own horn (TOOT!! Mutha@#%#@$n TOOT!! Along with the ideas comes a foul mouth), but I have been sober for 1 year and 7 months. Now a lot of it was forced as I was on probation and subject to random drug testing. But I made a commitment to stay completely drug free (including aspirin and pain relievers) as I wanted to maintain a clean lifestyle. Well, I am off probation and have everything pretty much back to normal. My license is fully restored and I have the freedom to terrorize the state of GA like a madman. But, to be honest, I dont have the urge to party like a rockstar for several reasons. One, I have no time to party. Between work, school and entertaining the masses, my time is taken up. I sleep like 2 minutes a night, study 10 hours and work for 12.5 hours. TRUE STORY. Two, I see too many signs around telling me to stay on the path that I am on. A friend of mine was recently let go from his job for multiple absences. What was happening was that, because of issues in his life (along with a pure hatred for his job), he drank every night. Whenever I would see him, he reaked of alcohol. He would tell me that it wasn't that serious and that, as soon as he found another job, he would quit drinking. One day, he tried to call out sick but wasn't able to because of the occurrences he had already used and he was forced to go in. The problem was that he still smelled like a brewery because of his activities from the night before. His manager had had enough and let him go. He told me the story but hasn't talked to me since. I've reached out a few times with no success. He is aware of my issues and I told him that I am always available to talk. Examples like this are what keep me on the straight and narrow because I know that all it takes is one slip up and it can get ugly real quick. My psychology teacher gave us a great saying a few days ago. She said, "One drink is too much, and two drinks is never enough." That stuck with me because it is the truth. That first drink makes you comfortable enough to think you can handle another.... and another....and another. Next thing you know, you wake up in a pasture next to a smiling sheep with wool all over your genitalia. OK, just kidding about the pasture but you catch my drift. For me, its not worth it to go backwards when I made a ton of progress over the past year and a half. The best I can do is be there for all. Helping is the best way to continue healing. Im done with this one!! Back to the fun next time!!! www.twitter.com/thefakejcoston https://www.facebook.com/#!/john.w.coston www.massiveinternetradio.com

Let Go, Dammitt!! With 2 T's!

First, let me apology for last week's blog!! I personally feel it was below the unbelievably high standards that I have set here!!! I just kind of winged it more than put any actual effort into it and, to you, the reader, my friend, I'm sorry. I always said that if you have nothing of substance to bring to the conversation, dont bring it. Whew, I feel better wasting a minute of your time with my sorrow!! This week (You lucky sonuvab%tch!! You get back to back weekly blogs!! Pat yourself on the back!), I do want to talk about something with a liiiitle bit of substance. Its about letting go. Lemme ask you, imaginary reader and friend of mine (that being said, I need to get a life ASAP) an open ended question? How can you move forward if you keep looking backward? If you ever watch a marathon, you'll see a runner in the lead of a race look back to see if there are any other runners behind them. That look-back (new word invented) will cause the runner to slow down slightly. If it's a big lead, its no big deal. But if it's a close race, it could lead to a runner catching up to the leader. Then the runner behind will catch up, look back at them and Jello Pudding and Reindeer on a Roof and....this long-a$$ analogy will just keep getting longer and more ridiculous if I let it!!! What I'm trying to say is looking back and letting the past hold you down will ALWAYS slow down your progression into the future. There comes a point in your life where you have to learn to let go of the past, no matter how much it hurts you to. You can't change what has happened but you can allow it to help mold your future, both positively and negatively. Carrying around pain from what people have said or done to you will stress you out to the point that you a) Make yourself sick from it, b) Hamper your ability to meet new people and make new connections, and c) Render you unable to formulate a new future for yourself. Even if you are still stuck in that environment, make it your life's goal to craft and create a new you. When you sense those demons creeping into your mind, take a walk to clear your head. Write down constructive goals. Become ambitious. Drop an elbow on your sister from the top rope (Oh, sorry that slipped out!!). Do whatever it takes to mold a future, not continue to live in the past. Take the positive energy that you have received in life and let that help you move forward. Let that pain go!! Word Up Son!!! I always say to myself "This will be a quick blog!!" A research paper later, I think "Wow! I still have more to write!!" If you have an issue, text me, inbox me, and Ill give you an outlet to vent! As long as it helps you move forward, I am here to help!! Now I will not get your cat out of a tree or loan you $12. But I'm here for all my folks!! OUT!!! https://www.facebook.com/#!/john.w.coston www.twitter.com/thefakejcoston www.massiveinternetradio.com

ShoutOuts!

Wow!! Talk about signs of old age!!! Tonight is a 65 degree night in Georgia and, instead of being on the town fondling the sweater meat of young ladies or destroying residential mailboxes with my baseball bat, Im here.... in a room...typing a blog with the hope that a few of you read it and say, "Hmmm...this moron is not as foolish as he may seem." All jokes aside, its 2013!! Despite what the Mayans predicted, we are still here. Quick question: Did you plan for it? Were you so sure that the rapture would sweep you up to the pearly gates to meet whatever God you praise that you forgot to set your goals and plans for the coming year? Or did you take the clown route and, instead of actually writing down goals and planning ways to achieve them, you made the usual New Years "Resolution" to start hitting the gym everyday, only to quit after the 3rd visit when, as a grown man, you got mad that people stared at your fluorescent green mandex (spandex for men! Sheesh) biker shorts and wont give you the space you need to workout. (And no, dawg! Bandannas dont make you a BADASS! It makes you look homeless!) Ok, seriously, please make this the year you stop making New Years Resolutions and start actually constructing goals and plans to achieve them. Trust me, the road to success, although at times rough, is a rewarding one. The connections you make and the highs and lows you experience make the journey all worth it. Now that I have that all out of the way, I wanted to actually use this blog to thank YOU. I wanted to thank everyone who helped inspire these blogs and continue to help me grow into the man I am becoming. Folks like my pops, who, despite my pension for silliness and tomfoolery, has stood by me when he could've turned his back on me when I was going through my nonsense. My sisters who havent yet killed me despite the annoyance that I intentionally bring to their lives. My nephew who inspires me more than I do him. My friends who I confide in, joke with and, in some cases, have picked me up from the middle of the dance floor while I was drunk doing snow angels. The women in my life, past, present, and future. I still take all the lessons of our interactions with me wherever I go. Basically, everyone who I have come in contact. And a special shoutout to my English teachers who, if they are reading this, are having a nervous breakdown from the abuse of run-on sentences in this blog!!! Really, thank you all for the support. I hope that 2013 is as interesting as 2012 was!!! Ill be back on point next blog!!! www.twitter.com/thefakejcoston www.facebook.com www.massiveinternetradio.com